Monday, April 25, 2016

We die, as we have lived.

My aunt died last week at aged 91. She was in my experience of her, a difficult lady. However, I both liked and loved her. And she was a lady. She was stunningly beautiful, except she was the only person never to know or accept that fact!

Her Mother, my Nana Deeney, used to tell her all the time, when she was young, that she was ugly and that her eyes were like two holes in a sheet! Folks you should have seen the beautiful child she was with a massive head of fabulous curls. Now I know where I got mine! She was tall and straight and elegant and a very good looking lady. She was softly spoken, until she became angry and then she’d scare the devil himself!

She was widowed about 40 years and had two boys and a girl. Her eldest son died 5 years ago or so.
Her only daughter lives abroad. Her youngest son, lived fairly near her. They were estranged.

My growing up with her, as she slept in our house during the day, while we went to school and my parents to work. She was a nurse and did the night shift in Cheshire homes near Glanmire. She qualified as a nurse in the UK and after almost rearing her children; she went to work in Cheshire Homes. She also did a lot of private nursing and even went to San Francisco to nurse a lady after she had had a very bad car accident. I thought it very brave of her, I must say, as she was in her 60’s at the time. She got the job because she lied about her age! I’m smiling as I write this, because I was a bit stunned when she told me this, that Kathleen would actually have the balls to lie about her age. Would you believe me when I tell you, she worked up to 71 years of age! That is true; she did work up until that age. I'm telling you she was some lady.

She was very bitter towards her dead husband; by all accounts they did not have a good relationship. Her lack of self-worth tortured her, all her life.

It is her death I wish mainly to speak about. I saw her last December 8th, as she was dying at the time, least that is what we were told. It’s not that I disbelieve this, Kathleen rallied around and died on the 14th April.

My sister phoned me that morning to say the nursing home had phoned her to say that Kathleen died in her sleep. For the previous 6 to 8 weeks she had refused food, water and her medication.
Later that day, my sister phoned me again to prepare me for seeing her corpse, she said Kathleen was emaciated.

I didn't see Kathleen until her removal last Saturday and all I saw was a skeleton with skin. She was, and forgive me for saying this, the ugliest corpse I had ever seen. Did she become an ugly corpse, because in life she had always believed she was ugly?!? I don’t know the answer to that. Her funeral has left me with great sadness, which I am currently unable to get past! Only that I knew better, I’d have said, that corpse was not my aunt Kathleen. 

Neither of her adult children came to the funeral. And I'm not past this either. I'm not angry with them, I just have this huge sadness inside of me that in the dying of your parent, no matter what they've done, you forgive. If for nothing else, at least you have closure. But maybe they didn't need or want closure?!?

Her friends came up and asked us where her children were and we replied they didn't come.
My sadness is too for my cousin’s children, as whether or not my cousins realise it or not, they've ensured that this trait, (for the want of a better word), whatever it is, gets passed on to their children and therefore they probably unwittingly have propagated whatever it was in their family history onto their children and grandchildren. Because what is left not healed after we are gone, gets left to future generations to heal. And so, hurts left unhealed, hurt our children and their children albeit unconsciously.

The funeral wasn't all sad, I like funerals as they level everyone there! Meaning, we are all going out the same way! No escape.

My Monaghan, Derry, Mayo and Cork cousins came, well as many as could come. Each side of the families were very well represented. I have to say, it was such a joy and a treat for me to meet all those cousins, as I don’t often get to meet them. When my brother-in-law and three Monaghan cousins carried the coffin out of the funeral home, I was hit with a dart of grief. Mainly at how proud Kathleen would be, to see this act of love from her family.

After the church we descended on a local hotel, as most of us who travelled were staying there for the night. I ate and chatted with a few of the Monaghan cousins, they all drank tea, I had wine! I don’t drink tea. (For now I won’t say anything about the fluoride content in tea and in Irish water.) Soon afterwards, my extended & immediate families were both eating and drinking. We caught up on each other’s lives, their children, whom I have not yet met, well the Monaghan 2nd cousins! Later on my parents & my Dad’s only brother left with my Mum and aunt. The only member of my family not to be there was my brother, who was in Australia with his wife, visiting their only daughter. My brother had been extraordinarily kind to Kathleen and we missed his presence there. I have to say the craic was mighty and I was slagged off for being  “Nuts & Bolts” and some other adjective, which escapes me just now! Oh the adjective was “Whacko” LOL!

Later on five cousins went across the road to another pub, I was on water at that stage and then one of my Monaghan cousins and I went into the hotel disco…….. Well, that’s saying it quite loosely! It was, in my opinion, a techno dance! We had two dances and left . Not my scene at all!

The following morning more cousins arrived, some driving through the night and others leaving at the crack of dawn to be there. We all assembled in the hotel foyer and made our way to the church for Kathleen funeral Mass. Nearly all the cousins had readings, prayers of the faithful or some job to do, like organising flowers. Near the end of Mass, one of my Derry strong female cousins asked if we ladies could carry the coffin, as they always do in Derry. I was thrilled, because I had always wanted to shoulder a coffin. So when Mass was over, five nieces and one grandniece carried Kathleen out of the Cathedral. I don’t know what this looked like, however, I was so honoured to be a part of shouldering Kathleen out of the church. My male cousins and brother-in-law brought Kathleen to her resting place.

We were lucky with the weather in that it was dry, but bitterly cold. You know that awful biting Easterly wind. Then we headed back to the hotel for something to eat. There were 30 family members there and one old family friend of my Dad’s, uncles and Kathleen’s. Almost as soon as we had eaten, people began to depart, lots of them had huge journeys ahead of them. So we hugged and said adieu.

What amazed me was the loyalty the Deeney clan has for their own, I hadn't thought about it before, but it was as obvious as the sun shine. Kathleen’s family did her proud and I hope she smiled. I think we first cousins were very lucky when we were young to have spent a lot of time with each other, as it gave us a solid base of comradery. It high-lighted for me, that I was neglectful not to have spent more time with my nieces and nephews for my children’s sake. It wasn't that my children didn't spend time with their first cousins; they did, but not as much time, as we did with our first cousins. 

Kathleen’s death also taught me how important family is. Not just your immediate family, but our extended families. My cousins are amazing Human Beings, not because they may have great jobs, no, they are amazing in who they are, as Human Beings. I am very proud to be a part of this clan. (I feel exactly the same about my Mum’s family).

We were able to take the piss out of ourselves while we were together. And no one was offended! The Deeney’s have a negative trait of always needing to be right! When this was brought up, you could see all the spouses nodding their heads furiously! I'm smiling as I type. And you know the fact that we could slag one another about these traits, I think, will mean, going forward, that part of us is now out in the open and we’ll all be more aware of our own foibles.

For me, while Kathleen’s life and death was sad, at times. I believe her death; brought the Deeney clan together, more than any other Deeney funeral I've been to. It really did instil in me just how important our families are in our lives. Though we go through life not even thinking about it, because life, became so busy. Honour and love your families’ folks. They ARE VERY IMPORTANT.

PS…….. I've sat with this for almost a week, I now think I know why. Years ago I did a thesis on the dying process and the biggest thing I learned from this was…… We die as we have lived. Meaning, I’ll talk and probably write about my own dying, when the time comes. That’s if I get a little time before I die. Kathleen died as she lived.

In honour of Kathleen this poem is for you.

Last Friday week, the 8th of April I was driving over to Kilcrohane to see a friend of mine and the sun was shining on the sea……….This is what came to me and it is apt for Kathleen.

The sun shone like diamonds upon the sea…
Reflecting God’s unconditional love in brilliant light,
And then the sea reflected that love back to God from his children here on Earth.
God being so immeasurable in his love for mankind,
Gently and generously reflected his love back, to us, his children.

Know deep within you,
If you really realised how much you are loved,
You would weep with joy.

Imagine that.................

Love Trich.

Thursday, February 11, 2016



 09/10/2004    to    09/02/2016

I haven't written a blog in over two and a half years, for one reason. Which I won't go into here.

However, I am now going to honour my companion Cleopatra Deeney O'Connell O'Mahony.
Cleo went to sleep two days ago and it is heartbreaking. I cry as I type.

I bought Cleo in December 2004 in Blarney, Co. Cork and I had a choice of two pups. Her sibling was quite cute, but somehow Cleo looked like the runt of the litter, so I choose her. Her professional name was Lady of Schull, but we never brought her to shows, so that name was defunct. Cleo was a Christmas present for my youngest daughter. Megan named her Cleopatra and she was a queen. I mean this in the best sense, although, she could be very demanding insisting you rub her belly, even when I was driving.

The above photo was taken in 2009,  at a small beach on the way to Goleen. The name of the beach escapes me now. What is incredible about this photo is that Cleo hated water, she never liked being showered. But that day she swam and it was the only time I ever saw her swim. However, her favourite place to walk was on Barleycove beach and we did that as often as was possible.

The reason for Cleo's long surname is this, my surname is Deeney, Megan is Deeney O'Connell and my partner at the time of getting Cleo was O'Mahony. Hence all her surnames. I used to work away from home every second week and my partner at the time would bring her to his parents home to be looked after for the day, until he finished work and would go and collect her and bring her home. He called it Cleo's crèche. My partners parents loved Cleo and my daughters, as though they were their only grandchildren and they loved me, more than my first parents-in-law. I shall never forget them as long as I live. Their love for me and mine shines so brightly to this day, even though both of them have gone to heaven. I so hope Jerry and Ann are still Cleo's guardians in heaven. I so hope that whenever my time comes to pass into Eternity that I am lucky enough to be with them, Cleo, Scienne and all those Human Beings I loved in this world and with those who loved me. (Scienne was an other Westie I had for 8 months, fado fado whom I also loved deeply.

Dogs are so loving and are so unconditional in their love for us Humans, You know, Dogs teach us Gods UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. It is why I grieve so much for them when they pass/die. God I so hope their is a doggie heaven, where I am reunited with all the dogs I've had in my life.

While Cleo was Megan's dog, I was her master. I don't know why, other than I cared for and fed her and brought her to the vet and she travelled all the roads of Ireland with me, Cleo was my shadow,
Fuck it, there is such a huge void in my heart and in my home since Tuesday, it's like losing one of my children. And I never want to lose any of my living children, I'd rather go before them. Such is a Mother's unconditional love for her children. I am so grateful for the children I've had, I include Ben here, he died in-vitro fado fado.

Yet, as a women, a mother, life and death, are intrinsic. When a Mum gives birth, she knows intrinsically how close death is to life. I cannot explain it, it just is. Your children grow up and leave home, as nature intended, it is how it needs to be. Your dog though, only leaves you in death.

Cleo I love you, I always will. I genuinely hope we will meet again in Heaven. I hope I get the privilege to get and to stay in heaven with you and with my deceased loved ones, Especially with the dogs I've lost in my life. Cle, you were the longest dog I had in my life, I am not passed you. Neither are Taylor or Lily, both of your buddies are lost without you, as I am. We are floundering in a chasm of loss for you.

Cle, Thank you for your companionship since 2007 when I broke up with O'Mahony, for travelling the road between here and work every second week. For being my shadow, who accompanied me since 2007 to the 9th February 2016. My heart aches and my soul echoes your loss in my world.

I know Taylor and Lily love me, and I love them.

You Cleo were such a huge presence in my life and I didn't realise how big, until you passed. There is a huge void in my heart and in our home since you departed.......... How will I get past it?!?

Cle thank you so much for your love, your loyalty to me and for the joy you brought to my life. Thank you.

In early January, I needed to cry, for a lot of shite that had been in my life for two and a half years, trust me this shite was worse than my marriage break-up and subsequent divorce. I do not cry easily. I never have, not since my childhood. On a particular Sunday morning I turned off my phone and lit the fire. I watched copious movies, some sad, some happy, some romantic comedies and some Christmas movies and at 4 PM the following day, I started to sob, when I did, Cleo howled and then sat on my right knee. Taylor then sat on my left knee. I continued to sob and Cleo howled. It was as though she knew my pain needed to be witnessed. She did what no other Human Being ever did for me, she was present to my pain and witnessed it.

It was THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT I've EVER been given. Cleo did this for me. It was uncanny. Surreal and most beautiful. I shall never forget her last profound gift to me.

I am truly grateful I was here while she was ill and did a four night vigil for her, prior to her death.

My heartfelt gratitude to Tim, her vet, his kindness and love to her was immense. To Tina, who organised her grave to be dug and who stayed with me until her burial. To Jack for digging her grave. To my daughters and Nic whose grief and compassion mean the world to me. To Mary who never got cross for the years and years of opening and closing the French doors to allow Cle in and out of the kitchen. Mary never ever got annoyed about doing her chores for Cle. My heartfelt gratitude for the love, kindness and compassion you showed to Cleo in her life and death. And to my friends who took care of her in her life, when I couldn't bring her with me. My heartfelt gratitude.

Love is an energy that never dies. Not even for animals.

Cleo, go raibh mile maith agat Alana agus slan abhaile. I pray we meet again.

Thank you Cleo for all the love, joy and loyalty you brought to my life.
I love you and I thank you for the 11 years and two months you were in life.

Trich xox

Friday, September 27, 2013

Ombudsman Emily O'Reilly

After ten years Ombudsman Emily O’Reilly leaves Office for the EU Ombudsman’s Office.

So I wrote to her via email, as I am sad to see her go. To my mind she was an inspiring lady Ombudsman, who took her work in this office seriously and she was always just and fair. She is a lady I have always admired and I sent a lot of people her way in my career as a public and civil servant.

Here’s my email to Emily.................

To:                 ,
Date:                 25/09/2013 20:41
Subject:                 Emily you will be a huge loss to Ireland

Dear Emily,

Since May 18th 1992 to August 30th 2013, I worked as a Community Welfare Officer and in my time in the service, I have always advised my fellow Irish Human Beings
to appeal the decisions they were unhappy with, then to go to the Chief Appeals Officer and then to your office. Primarily to you since you started in the job of
Ombudsman. I have always regarded you as fair and just. Virtues rarely seen in some of our Public and Civil servants, much to my sadness. Yes, of course they exist.
But none as passionate and as just as you, in my experience. I feel your going to the EU as a huge loss to our small country. I mean this so sincerely.

I do wish you well in your career move and I hope it meets your hearts desire.

Maybe you see a bigger picture to the one I see right now?!?

While I wish you all you wish for yourself, I cannot hide the loss I feel at you leaving the position of Irish Ombudsman.

Please advocate for us in the EU with the Troika et al. We need strong Human Beings like you. I am aware there is wisdom in all happenings.

Still my sadness lingers at your loss to Ireland.

Is mise le meas,


This is Emily’s reply to me and I am chuffed she took the time to respond.

Dear Trich,

How kind and thoughtful of you to take the time to contact me and sen me your good wishes.

I can tell that you must have been a very humane Community Welfare Officer and clearly never lost empathy despite spending many years in the job. Those people you helped we're very fortunate.

I was very touched by your comments and I will treasure them as I head off to my new role.

Warm wishes


It’s a beautiful response................
Go gently Lady.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Life's little wisdoms .............. That I have learned ...........

I wrote this as an email to a friend. I did edit out bit's that would either identify them or where in the world I was speaking of............. to be fair to them and to me. The main reason I am posting this, is because, I think the wisdom's I am writing about are universal. In the next while, I will add the links to this blog, that I refer to here. Right now, I am to tired to do so..... As I am tired from the stress of not having a regular sleeping pattern over the last 9 weeks! I write this as much for me, as I did my friend. Thank you for reading my blog, it now has had over 11,560 odd hits. I am deeply grateful to you for this gift to me. Thank you :)

Ginger in your diet, would be beneficial to your digestive track. Cook it, in food, rather than eat it raw, it is a tad HOT!
Every morning and around 7 in the evening, boil Un-Fluoridated water, add a teaspoon of organic or manuka honey, with crushed ginger, thyme and a generous slice of lemon, squeezed into the mix, plus add the lemon, stir and this aids digestion and alkalises the body too. Plus it helps your kidneys to be more productive. 
Plus..................... If you put a teaspoon of bread soda in warm water everyday for a month and drink it. Then maintain it 3 times weekly, you will lose weight.
Trust me on this!
You agree the body is very wise? Well the natural state in our body is to be alkaline. However,
because we eat fries and shite processed foods, (Yes all processed foods including ALL Monsanto seeds/Products), our body becomes acidic. This in turn causes all kinds of illness for us humans, even cancer! Cancer, by the way, is a fungus. It can be cured simply by an alkaline diet/bread soda and raw natural foods. Do the research, if you don’t believe me!
This information is being suppressed by big pharmaceutical companies,  as they earn a minimum of 30,000 $ or € per patient with cancer! ++++++++
The fuckers!
If our bodies become too acidic this is what happens.............. The body naturally adds fat to our bodies, WHY?
Because, if our bodies did not build up fat, our organs would be destroyed by the acid build up. So because our bodies are so wise, (Always remember the body never lies and the heart always knows........) they naturally increase the fat content in our bodies to store the acid and to keep it away from our precious organs, to protect them from the hazardous danger of acid. Now do you see why you’ve put on weight.....................fries et al. 
I have tons of info on this! Plus on Fluoride, Chemtrails, HAARP, GWEN, Scalar weapons, vaccines, microwave radiation, Evil Monsanto, the Global Financial Crisis, which has been manufactured!! ++++++  Read my blog sometime. All that info is there! My blog is either deeply personal or political!
You will not see your children grow up to be a man/woman and see his/her children, if you do not change your eating habits! Use this, as motivation, if that’s your need!
Having said that, currently, I lack motivation!!!! See the advice I am giving you!! Everything I say, do, feel and think is 100% about me! 
Sit with this, until you get it.This is my current challenge! The paradox of being a Human Being!
However, I am struggling through this currently. I am aware, of what I say, do, feel and think!!
Since, I was 18 I have studied psychology informally and then did 5 years in college to learn more. I’ve learned more outside college than I did in college, however, I do not reduce the benefit of my formal education. However, life teaches us more, if we choose to learn. It’s all about Free Will at the end of every day!
I always thought it was extremely important to wake up to self and it is NB. However, it is equally important to wake up to the world we live in. When I was rearing my children, I used to talk to God and say, “I am so glad, I do not know what you know! In a sense it was a cop-out. However, it was where I was then. I could NOT have coped then, with what I now know. So when my youngest left home, I started to get brave....... yeah, in some ways I have always been brave, I would say, I am a courageous body................ However, after my youngest left home, I said to God, ok, show me a little more of what you know. He did, once I acclimatised to that information, which did come my way, I’d ask for more information and so it went on............ it is still on going. However, there are some dark places, I do not want to go to! As they are to close to the bone for me!
Maybe, someday, I will go there?!? I truly do not know.
Have the best life you can have, shine your light onto our world, our world needs your light. Be congruent, you’ll be authentic and folk will naturally hear and know this intuitively.
You are here in this time, because you have a purpose, you have a unique light to shine that is a God given gift. Shine!
When you shine, you give other’s the permission to do so too.
Yes, I hear and see what I am writing too.
This is life.......................
How better can it get..................... Red heart  Live from your heart.

Le meas.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Me as I am...................

My bet is, tomorrow the weather in my world will be crap! Why? They have been spraying us heavily with chemtrails today! This breaks my heart! I am not a perfect human being, I smoke, and I drink wine, a part from that, I am a beautiful human being, who has always found it very difficult to “Fit into this world”. My huge paradox is, I am poisoning myself with all the chemicals in cigarettes, this I know. I smoke because when I was young, my life was extremely difficult and when the pain hit my throat, I felt it as way to over-whelming. I didn't have the life experience I now have to deal or cope with that pain. In my young days, in life in Ireland, NO ONE spoke about sexual, physical and emotional abuse, in fact then, those words were unheard of! They did not exist, therefore, my pain, did not exist, in Irish life’s reality, BUT, it did, in my reality! So I spent years and years doing all I could do, to understand, my pain, to heal my pain. It was like exploring in the dark, blind, to any light. In truth, it was a living fucking hell! I am rarely this graphic about my experiences in childhood! However, that is how my life was way back then! A living fucking hell! I shall never forget the torture of that pain. And when people say, “Forgive and Forget, to my mind, the “FORGET” part is bollocks, from that starting point! Now, it mostly does not intrude in my life. Thank God. 

How can I forget what formed me? I cannot forget, nor would I want to forget. It isn't that this is on my mind daily, it isn't  in truth. As time passed and I started to heal me, I would forget for a while and then as more time passed, I would heal more and then I would forget for longer periods each time! That’s when I knew, for sure, that what I was doing was healing me. It was one of the toughest journeys I've ever undertaken in my life. Doing your own inner work IS THE TOUGHEST  MOST PAINFUL WORK ANY HUMAN BEING CAN DO! Paradoxically, THE MOST REWARDING!

Forgiving, takes work. The way I learned to forgive goes like this…………….. If I do not forgive, it is shite I have to carry! No one else on this planet is aware, I feel as I do. Just me, I suffer this un-forgiveness! No one else! Just me! The person, I am un-forgiving towards is absolutely unaware that I have all this anger/angst/un-forgiveness towards them! Right? So the only body here that is suffering is me! Right? WHY? Why am I doing this to me? It beats Banagher………… (An Irish expression!). Trust me on this! When I was 15, I was walking over to Ballyphehane Church to go to Mass, early one morning. I cannot remember if it was during lent or on a Sunday morning, that is entirely irrelevant, in truth! But at the time, I hated one man, with a fucking passion. He was the person who had first abused me. Near to the Church, this voice came into my head, that said, and I quote……… “If you hate him, you will destroy your life”! To this day, I do not believe this was my voice. I was so young, as we all were in the mid 1970’s! The impact this voice had on me was immense. I knew with every fibre of my being that what the voice said to me, was absolute truth. (You see, my life to that moment had been filled with so many lies. And in my being, I knew this, yet this voice, spoke truth to me, how then, could I not listen to truth?).  This was truth and I knew it. Remember, you knew as a child/young teen when you were spoon fed lies! Actually, even in adulthood, we know it! Again, our choice is to acknowledge this or not! (Life is all about choice or Free Will….) From that moment on, I prayed fervently to forgive this man. In time, I did. I begged God to help me with this, he did and I will always be deeply grateful to God for this gift. For forgiveness is a gift to self, to no one else! Do NOT forget this! Later on, I realised, it was a harder task to forgive me. However, I used the same formula, I had to get to a place where I truly wanted and needed to forgive me and then, I prayed to God for the grace to forgive myself. Forgiveness is a huge gift to self. DO NOT FORGET THIS PLEASE! It is a life truism!

While I have healed almost all of these scares, the scares remain. Think of a physical scare, whether it be, sexual, physical, emotional, creative, behavioural, spiritual,  intellectual and psychologically! Oh don’t forget your attractiveness is a given! (These areas of self are called the nine expressions of self). Each scare you receive in any of these areas’ stay a scar. An open scar, if you choose not to heal any one of them! It is a natural law. Just look at any of your body scars! A scare remains on your body, psyche and soul, if we do not heal them for ourselves, they remain open, however, we can heal the scare. However, a scare remains, only as a pointer to where we have come from,  In my experience of life and I think, I have had a lot of life experiences in life, thus far, some more horrendous than others! Having said that, my life has been great in many other ways. For this, I am deeply grateful, to God, to life, to those who have assisted me in my journey and who have helped me to heal me and to my own courage to undertake this journey. You know, I once read someone, a prominent psychologist, whose name escapes me right now, say to a client, “Don’t come back, until your pain is really bad”. When I read this I was horrified. But you know what, it is a truism. No human being will ever do their own inner work, until their pain becomes so bad, that their only option is to look at it and deal with and heal their own pain! That my friends, is a life reality! IMHE.

Today a young man challenged me about why I get so upset about Chemtrails when I poison myself with all the chemicals in cigarettes. I took this on the chin, because he is absolutely right! This is challenging me recently, (long before he said this to me!), I see my own paradox! My reality is of my past fear returning to my throat! I'm not sure, I can deal with that all over again, silly you may say, and in some ways I agree with you, thus far though, I have not got past this irrational fear! And I know it to be irrational! Even more paradoxical, don’t you think? My bottom line here is, I know, I have more work to do in loving who I am. This is my imperfection. Yet, my uniqueness too. We are all the equal and opposite of what make us, individually us! This I truly believe. I am very aware, this is my issue, I need to deal with this, before my body’s wisdom, does it for me! That means, before I become ill. My body is already hinting this! As of now, I am mostly ignoring my body and in the depths of my being, it will be my Achilles heel, if I choose to do nothing about the fact that I have smoked cigarettes since I was 14 years old!

I don’t want or need to get ill! Seriously. I am mostly a very healthy Human Being/Person. Sometimes, I allow myself to get stressed out, to the point where I do not sleep! As has happened to me just now! What I am grateful for is that I now recognise my stress sooner now, than I used to! This is a gift to me and one I cherish hugely.

I think now, it doesn't matter what happens to me in life, what is most important is how I interpretate the happenings of the event/situations! I have learned, it doesn't matter what happens to me in life, what really matters is how I respond to the situation! No other person can hurt your soul, only you can do that! It is the inner most, deepest part of being a human being. So why do we hurt ourselves? Ain’t that the million dollar question for all Human Kind? The answer to this question is multi-dimensional, depending on how each of us interprets what has happened to us in this life, for good or bad! Suppose you look at life, in a clear class and see that nothing that you've experienced is bad! Wouldn't that be a blessing? Yes it would be a blessing! Well you can do this! All you need to do is change the old record in your head, and say, this is an opportunity for me to explore a different essence / part of me, rather than the old record, that says, Have I something invisible on my face that says, hit me! I know, I used to use the latter record! I changed this record, I've come to know, slowly, that all experiences are OPPORTUNITIES for me to grow as a unique individual. So why not, look at life this way?

For that's all it is, keep changing your own and world views. Yes, it was your story, but you can change your story any time you want and need to do so. Yes, the CHOICE is always yours! This takes self-responsibility. Not an easy task, I know, sure I am failing it, at the moment re giving up the cigarettes. And yet I become cross and broken hearted that others are poisoning us from the skies……. There is no congruence in this, in truth!

So is my memory of that horrendous childhood pain true now?
Ask yourself the same question!
I am!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

My three and a half weeks of internet speed dating…………..

It was a whirlwind experience, to say the least. I am exhausted after it. I hadn’t realised that meeting 10 men in that period of time would be as exhausting as it was. Trust me, it is! The first man I met, had contacted me through my blog, “The Wedding Date” and I admired his bravery.

We met in Carlow, this is not where he is from and we spent six hours together chatting, he was such a lovely guy………. However, there was no chemistry for me.

During this blog, I will reveal three things about me that probably do not flatter me. However, it is my truth. This guy was smaller than me too and I knew as he walked towards me in the Hotel, that I wasn’t attracted to him. Still, I’d like to think we’ll remain good friends.

Mr 2 I met for lunch, I was eating when he arrived and all he had was a pot of tea. As an aside, I have met 3 men in this particular restaurant and I sit upstairs there and I have no doubt the waitress is wondering about the 3 different men, I was with for lunch! J He seemed nice enough, but there was zero attraction from me to him. I’ll give him credit though, he came shopping with me for a scare, as that night I was going to an ‘80’s charity night fancy dress and as I was dressing as “Sandra Dee” I needed something for my hair. I was dressing in leather trousers and jacket, when “Sandra Dee” had reached her bold confident stage LOL. I was choosing a light coloured scarf and he suggested a red / orange scarf. He was right on the colour and then informed me that he had been in the rag trade for years! As I am NOT a natural shopper, I took his word for it and he was right, the colours suited me. He too asked if we could meet again and some wisdom in me, said, I’d sit with it. Dear Lord, was I grateful for listening to my own inner voice! I texted him when I got home and stated there was no spark for me, he texted back that he was “Gutted, as I had opened him mentally, physically and sexually and that he was gutted”……. When I read that, I said to myself, whoo Trich, lucky escape there girl!! Next morning I received a text that said he hadn’t slept the night before and could we be friends. I agreed…………..Wrong move on my part! The next Sunday, I receive a text to say that he met some woman on the Friday night and she was going to his house to “Get Laid” …….As if I needed to hear that! I requested he not contact me again……….. so after a night and next morning of abusive texts to me, he thankfully went on his way. I’ve learned NOT to respond to any messages from folk like him!!

I joined “Plenty Of Fish” dating site, the night before I met Mr 1. That was on the 24th March last. Then on Fools Day, I met Mr 3, Flippin Nora the chemistry was great. But there was “something” and it took me the rest of the week to figure it out. All texting, even after we met, with only one phone call prior to meeting. He wasn’t congruent. That’s what I felt. I really am not interested in folk who are not congruent. So it was bye bye to Mr 3.

Mr 4 was a dote of a man, very bright, funny and artistic. So what was wrong? He was smaller than me and folks, this is one thing I do not need to explain, it is just the way I am. I am only 5’ 3 ½” I am not tall. I need a man to be taller than me. What I really liked about him, was his intelligence, I am a bit of a Sapiophile. Plus his humour was great too. It didn’t matter how I felt, he was smaller than me ……………….. It is an issue I own and I do not feel the need to look at why, I am this way! He asked me straight up, would I meet him again and I declined.

Years ago my eldest daughter went out with a guy much smaller than her and I even found that difficult!!

Mr 5, oh Sweet God, his bum wasn’t even on the seat, when he started being negative. I experienced his energy like his two fists were up to me ready to fight! This lasted for all but the last 20 minutes of the date. I knew he was nervous, but he also took two phone calls from his mates and that to me is a no no. That is not the decorum of a first date! In the last 15 to 20 minutes of the date, he relaxed and his whole face changed. He asked me out to dinner and I declined thanking him. I really could not deal with his sky high defences! I’ve done my inner work and I still do it, so I absolutely honour this in me!

Mr 6…………. I can’t remember his name……… oops! We had lunch, he was nice, kind of aggressive and slightly grumpy, however, ok and a good Dad. He bought me lunch, which was gentlemanly and I admire that in any man. There was a bit of one man up-ness about him. But the bottom line was………. Yeah, no chemistry, at all! Slan……………………................

Mr 7 was on time, I stood to take my jacket off and looked down at the cash desk and as I did, there he was and he smiled up at me. Lovely guy I thought. He joined me and gave me a present of a “Scrabble Dictionary”. We had played scrabble nights before and he beat the socks off me. I was impressed, as I don’t normally loose at scrabble! That may sound egotistic of me and maybe it is…….. it has been years since I’ve played and on the night we did play scrabble, I had had a few glasses of wine and my brain was slow! I am not making excuses for myself here, this guy was / is brilliant at scrabble. While we spoke, I realised he thought differently and I really liked that about him. He was genuinely a lovely man. I went back to his house and we chatted for 4 hours! I had only intended to stay for two hours! He is a very open man about who he is and where he came from. I still like him. In fact I called to his house yesterday. He is courteous and kind and thinks differently and sure I LOVE people who think differently and who are different…… Hell I am so different in aspects of who I am, why wouldn’t I love another unique individual. He asked me if we could do this again and I said, I’d like that………… I’d love this guy as a friend, yeah, no fecking chemistry! I was getting rather pissed off this scenario with myself, at this stage!

You see, I can look at men and say they are attractive, however, I do not find them attractive to me! It is the bane of my life in many ways. However, I trust my own responses too. You see, I’ve made lots of mis – takes in my life, by not listening to my instinct! I now listen to my body, as I believe, the body never lies and the heart always knows! I got that, after the last relationship I had!!!!!! Sometimes, I am a slow learner!
My need here is to state and declare, that in all the men I have met, I kissed two, one tried to kiss me, but I wasn’t going there. I have not had nookie with ANY OF THEM! It wasn’t that I don’t want to make love with a guy, I’d love nothing more than to make love, however, if I don’t feel it, I don’t go there, in a nut shell! The way I see it, I can pleasure myself better, than most men can! That may sound crude; believe me, I so dislike crude. Facts are facts, in my world! This is my reality! Please don’t say, you haven’t met me yet! I know me! You do NOT!

The next night, this guy, yeah Mr 8, started emailing me on POF and texting me on my phone, so it was a catch up, between POF and texting! He was in a rush……… I agreed to meet him the next evening in a pub, I often frequent for something to eat. He was late! Tardy, I thought! He was ok-ish and I decided to kiss him. I like to do that, the odd time, plus I felt I needed the practice………. No not very honourable of me, I know! After we both had had two drink and I had had something to eat, I decided to go to the smoking area for a cig, he said he was going to the bathroom and that he’d pay for what we’d had………………………..

Now…………….here was my dilemma ……. I could not leave the bar, without paying. So I paid for the drinks and what I had eaten…………..I have never minded doing this…………. However, more of that later………….

I had my cig and we left the bar. He walked me to my car and even sat in it for about 10 minutes. In that time, he did not thank me for paying for his drinks! I did and do have an issue with this! After I said good night, I received a text from him, that stated …….. “I was going to ask you back to my place……..” I replied, “I wouldn’t have gone”. His response was……”I am brave, but not stupid” ………….. I already had the measure of him. When I texted him later on to say there was NO spark, he came back with “I couldn’t be bothered with getting my brain fired and continued with some other shite……….. I wasn’t arsed replying! So Mr 8 was gone.

Mr 9 met me last Wednesday night, in hurricane weather at Cork airport, after I had finished work. I had said the Airport Hotel, which to me was the Raddison, but he was nowhere to be seem when I arrived a few minutes late, due to that awful weather and traffic! He had gone to the other Hotel in the airport complex! We met in the foyer and again I instantly knew there was no attraction for me. However, this man, while 12 years older than me, was a Gent. We spend three hours together in relaxed conversation. I was impressed that he was born on the same day as me, albeit 11 years earlier. He is a genius with computers amongst other talents. The tail end of some hurricane was blaring outside, I was so sorry I had parked so far away from the hotel!! Again, he was smaller than me….. Sin é as far as I am concerned, plus, yeah that all elusive chemistry was not there. Truly, a lovely human being…………… Again an individual, I’d loved to be friends with………….?!? When I texted him to say, no spark…………….. his reply the following day, which I had initially mis-understood, asked, if I had been scared about how comfortable our date had been……… I didn't need to ponder this, as one of my gifts, is that, I make people comfortable or uncomfortable with me! I am so comfortable in my own skin and in who I am too. I realise this is not the “Irish” way, however, it is my reality. I said so. I needed to be fair with this man here, he is a gorgeous human being, but I just didn't fancy him, sin é!

Mr 10 the next night cancelled, I was grateful and if you don’t mind, my need is not to say why! Plus, I was really getting exhausted!

So Mr 11, became Mr 10. I liked the numerology …………. 10 equals 1………. This beautiful human being and I spoke for days on the phone, he doesn’t do typing well! I dislike texting, but would type and speak for Ireland!! ;)) This was THE man, I was most interested in. I loved his profile when I read it. I liked his picture, he is also in a similar profession to me and I have always wanted to date someone in this particular profession. Anyway, he got peed off with my slow cautious approach, so we did the phone calls………..Which lasted for at least 4 hours at a time! Yes, believe it or believe it not, when I am really interested in someone, I do slow and cautious…………. Fact about me! Or I do nothing about it, or I go for it………. Depending on how I feel at that given time!

His voice was sexy and I loved it………….. I have a thing about voices…………. Being on radio for 6 years gave me an edge on voices………….. I really do find a good voice an aphrodisiac. I probably shouldn’t say that, but my motto is, people do or they don’t, there is no “should” about it!

He was really into me and I was being cautious because I know me. I either am attracted to you or I am not! I know the second I see you, if I am attracted or not! In a way, it is a curse, on the other hand, it stands me in good stead too! Who am I to criticise me?!? I am who I am and I both like and love who I am. That is a gift to me.

Last weekend, I spent it with my daughter, in Galway. We had a ball. I love who she is and I love her company. She loves when I am driving, as it allows her to talk with me, without any distractions. After we had checked in, I had to move my car from the “Set Down” parking spot, which I did. I brought my phone with me and phoned Mr 10. We ended up having a row………….. I don’t like conflict, however, I tend to be either good or disastrously bad at it! There is rarely a middle ground with it, with me! Anyway, I heard him the first time, I apologised and ended up apologising 3 times and still he went on, so just before I was beginning to lose it, I re-iterated and mirrored back to him, what he had said, what I had heard and my 3 apologies. This time, he heard me! However, I was a tad upset. I got over it and the next day, my daughter and I walked Galway all day………… During this walk about, Mr 10 requested photo’s of me, I obliged. What strikes me now, is that it did NOT dawn on me to request the same of him! That wasn’t very bright of me! You see the row had been about the fact that I had said, seemingly a number of times, I won’t know until I meet you, if I am attracted to you….. This is what upset him. When he said, I may not find you attractive, I felt it as a tiny sting and got what he was saying, therefore, I apologised. After 3 apologies and not been heard, I was beginning to lose my patience. Anyway……… I got over it.

We met yesterday at the “MidWay” in Portlaoise. He was late, as he had gotten lost and his car battery had died! This didn’t bother me, shite happens to us all……………

When he did arrive he phoned me from the car park, saying, where are you, can you come out to meet me…….. which I felt was a tad demanding, I don’t do demanding of me well! Anyway, I did go out to the car park to meet him and in the distance, I saw him and knew instantly, I didn’t fancy him. I stayed with him for an hour or so, but while I sat there, in front of him, I just could not see me being intimate with him. So I excused myself and went to the ladies. I came back and said I was going home and stood up and said I won’t do the long goodbye. (Even though, in my past, I have!) (But eventually I learn!) So we hugged and I left.

My heart was so disappointed, truly, I still loved his voice and I had had hopes for us, as a couple. All were dashed………. And as I say, Reality beats Fantasy hands down all the time, I needed to repeat this to myself a number of times on the 4 hour journey home! The row we had had on the Friday night, I had allowed myself to fall into a fantasy notion, rather than waiting for the reality of meeting him. T’was a hard lesson learned. When I know this so well!!

Last Saturday, I had deleted my POF account. I won’t be going back for a while. I actually don’t know if I will re-join or not! It may end up being a movable feast, a bit like my hair! LOL!

What I've written has been my experience of dating, after a 20 month absence. It seems to me that the only way to meet men is by internet dating. Twitter and Facebook are NOT the place to meet anyone. Sure, I've met a lot of people at Tweetups (Twitter Meet Ups), but none thus far that I’d fancy. Yeah, I know I am fussy, but you know what, I am worth it. I am not being big headed about this, it is my truth and my truth is all I can speak about.

So, if I am to meet anyone, it is now, in God’s hands……………………………………………….. Oh the other two things I cannot do…………. Are men younger than me, not under 45 and I’d have a big challenge with that even! The other, and I so know this is not politically correct, but I've had an experience where I put my back out and I am not prepared to go out with men in wheel chairs. I've worked hard all my life, my life had been difficult, I wouldn't change a thing about it, however, I do want my later years on this planet to be a tad easier, for me. Plus, and I never admit this, but at heart, I am a romantic. I want it all, love, romance, to balance each other, to be great communicators, lovers, friends, companions etc. I am worth it ;)

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Comprehensive List Of GMO Products...... Monsanto

This I believe is vital information to the public about Monsanto's genetically modified ingredients, foods, soft drinks & chocolate! It is no wonder that there is such high obesity on our magnificently beautiful planet, given the products listed below! 

Stop buying these products and clear your presses, fridges and freezers of them! They are slowly poisoning you and your loved ones! 

Grrrrr..................... GMO's are one of the subjects that I allow, to make me cross! 

From Wikipedia ........................

GloFish, the first genetically modified animal to be sold as a pet
genetically modified organism (GMO) is an organism whose genetic material has been altered using genetic engineering techniques. Organisms that have been genetically modified include micro-organisms such as bacteria and yeast, insects, plants, fish, and mammals. GMOs are the source of genetically modified foods, and are also widely used in scientific research and to produce goods other than food. The term GMO is very close to the technical legal term, 'living modified organism' defined in the Cartagena Protocol on Biosafety, which regulates international trade in living GMOs (specifically, "any living organism that possesses a novel combination of genetic material obtained through the use of modern biotechnology").
This article focuses on what organisms have been genetically engineered, and for what purposes. The article on genetic engineering focuses on the history and methods of genetic engineering, and on applications of genetic engineering and of GMOs. Both articles cover much of the same ground but with different organizations (sorted by organism in this article; sorted by application in the other). There are separate articles on genetically modified cropsgenetically modified foodregulation of the release of genetic modified organisms, and controversies.

The following site is where I got the information below.

Comprehensive List Of GMO Products   

GM labeling on all food products is mandatory in Europe, but here in America consumer’s are left in the dark as to exactly what they are eating.
Here is the list of Genetically Modified Foods – get ready to clean out your pantry!Prepare to blow chunks, this list is shocking. A few general observations: The availability of Non GM food vs. GM food is about 50/50. Most “brand name,” products and corporate giants genetically modify their foods. Most foods listed under the “non-genetically modified,” section are not well known and are not considered “mainstream.” Download and read it in PDF-Comprehensive List Of GMO Products

Baby Food ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Nabisco (Phillip Morris)
-Arrowroot Teething Biscuits
-Infant formula Carnation Infant Formulas(Nestle)
-Good Start
-Follow-Up Soy
Enfamil Infant Formulas (Mead Johnson)
-Enfamil with Iron
-Enfamil Low Iron
-Enfamil A.R.
-Enfamil Nutramigen
-Enfamil Lacto Free
-Enfamil 22
-Enfamil Next step (soy and milk-based varieties)
-Enfamil Pro-Soybee
Isomil Infant Formulas (Abbot Labs)
-Isomil Soy
-Isomil Soy for Diarrhea
-Similac(Abbot Labs)
-Similac Lactose Free
-Similac with Iron
-Similac Low Iron
-Similac Alimentum

Baking ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Aunt Jemima (Quaker)
-Complete Pancake & Waffle Mix
-Buttermilk Pancake & Waffle Mix
-Cornbread Mix
-Easy Mix Coffee Cake
Betty Crocker (General Mills)
-Pie Crust Mix
-Original Pancake Mix
-Complete Pancake Mix
-Buttermilk Complete Pancake Mix
-Muffin Mixes
-Banana Nut
-Lemon Poppy Seed
-Wild Blueberry
-Chocolate Chip
-Apple Streusel
-Quick Bread Mixes Banana
-Cinnamon Streusel
-Lemon Poppy Seed
-Cranberry Orange
-Cookie Mixes Chocolate Chip
-Double Chocolate Chunk
-Peanut Butter
Bisquik (Betty Crocker/General Mills)
-Reduced Fat
-Shake ‘n Pour Pancake Mix
-Shake ‘n Pour Buttermilk Pancake Mix
-Shake ‘n Pour Blueberry Pancake Mix
Duncan Hines (Aurora Foods)
-Muffin Mixes
-Kellogg’s All-Bran Apple Cinnamon
-Kellogg’s All-Bran Blueberry
-Blueberry Crumb
-Chocolate Chip
Hungry Jack (Pillsbury)
-Buttermilk Pancake Mix
-Extra Light & Fluffy Pancake Mix (all varieties)
-Corn Muffin Mix
-Blueberry Muffin Mix
-Raspberry Muffin Mix
-Pie Crust Mix
Mrs. Butterworths (Aurora Foods)
-Complete Pancake Mix
-Buttermilk Pancake Mix
Pepperidge Farms (Campbell’s)
-Buttermilk Pancake Mix
-Quick Bread & Muffin Mixes
-Chocolate Chip
-Lemon Poppyseed
-Hot Roll Mix
Bakers (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Unsweetened Chocolate
-Semi-Sweet Chocolate
-German Sweet Chocolate
-White Chocolate
-Semi-Sweet Baking Chips
-Milk Chocolate Chips
-Mini Kisses
-Toll House Semi-Sweet Chocolate Chips
-Milk Chocolate Chips
-White Chocolate
-Butterscotch Chips
-Semi-Sweet Chocolate Baking Bars

Bread ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Holsum (Interstate Bakeries)
-Holsum Thin Sliced
-Roman Meal
-12 Grain
-Round Top
-Home Pride
-Buttertop White
-Buttertop Wheat
Pepperidge Farms (Campbell’s)
-Cinnamon Swirl
-Light Oatmeal
-Light Wheat
-100% Whole Wheat
-Hearty Slices
-7 Grain
-9 Grain
-Crunchy Oat
-Whole Wheat
-Light Side
-7 Grain
-Soft Dinner Rolls
-Club Rolls
-Sandwich Buns
-Hoagie Rolls
Thomas’ (Bestfoods)
-English Muffins Original
-Cinnamon Raisin
-Honey Wheat
-Oat Bran
-Maple French Toast
Toast-r-Cakes Blueberry
Toast-r-Cakes Corn Muffins
Wonder (Interstate Bakeries)
-White Sandwich Bread
-Country Grain
-Thin Sandwich
-Light Wheat
-100% Stoneground Wheat
-Fat Free Multigrain
-Premium Potato
-Beefsteak Rye
-Wonder Hamburger Buns

Breakfast ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

-Pop Tarts (all varieties)
-Pop Tarts Snack Stix (all)
-Nutri-Grain Bars (all)
-Nutri-Grain Fruit Filled Squares (all)
-Nutri-Grain Twists (all)
-Fruit-Full Squares (all)
Nabisco (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Fruit & Grain Bars (all varieties)
-Nature Valley (General Mills)
-Oats & Honey Granola Bars
-Peanut Butter Granola Bars
-Cinnamon Granola Bars
Pillsbury (General Mills)
-Toaster Scrambles & Strudels (all varieties)
-Chewy Granola Bars (all varieties)
-Fruit & Oatmeal Bars (all varieties)
-Aunt Jemima Frozen Waffles
Eggo Frozen Waffles (Kellogg’s)
-Nutri-Grain Whole Wheat
-Nutri-Grain Multi Grain
-Cinnamon Toast
-Apple Cinnamon
-Banana Bread
Hungry Jack Frozen Waffles (Pillsbury/General Mills)

Cereal ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

General Mills
-Corn Chex
-Lucky Charms
-Golden Grahams
-Cinnamon Grahams
-Count Chocula
-Honey Nut Chex
-Frosted Cheerios
-Apple Cinnamon Cheerios
-Multi-Grain Cheerios
-Frosted Wheaties
-Brown Sugar & Oat Total
-Basic 4
-Reeses Puffs
-French Toast Crunch
-Frosted Flakes
-Corn Flakes
-Special K
-Raisin Bran
-Rice Krispies
-Corn Pops
-Product 19
-Froot Loops
-Marshmallow Blasted Fruit Loops
-Apple Jacks
-Smart Start
-Complete Wheat Bran
-Complete Oat Bran
-Just Right Fruit & Nut
-Honey Crunch Corn Flakes
-Raisin Bran Crunch
-Cracklin’ Oat Bran
Country Inn Specialties (all varieties)
-Mothers Cereals (Quaker)
-Toasted Oat Bran
-Peanut Butter Bumpers
-Groovy Grahams
-Harvest Oat Flakes
-Harvest Oat Flakes w/Apples & Almonds
-Honey Round Ups
Post (Kraft-Phillip Morris)
-Raisin Bran
-Bran Flakes
-Grape Nut Flakes
-Grape Nut O’s
-Fruit & Fibre date, raisin and walnut
-Fruit & Fibre peach, raisin and almond
-Honey Bunch of Oats
-Honey Nut Shredded Wheat
-Honey Comb
-Golden Crisp
-Waffle Crisp
-Cocoa Pebbles
-Cinna-Crunch Pebbles
-Fruity Pebbles
-Post Selects Cranberry Almond
-Post Selects Banana Nut Crunch
-Post Selects Blueberry Morning
-Post Selects Great Grains
-Cinnamon Life
-100% Natural Granola
-Toasted Oatmeal
-Toasted Oatmeal Honey Nut
-Oat Bran
-Cap’n Crunch
-Cap’n Crunch Peanut Butter Crunch
-Cap’n Crunch Crunchling Berries

Chocolate ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Cadbury (Cadbury/Hershey’s)
-Almond Joy
-York Peppermint Patty
-Dairy Milk
-Roast Almond
-Fruit & Nut
-Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups
-Mr. Goodbar
-Special Dark
-Milk Chocolate
Kraft (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Toblerone (all varieties)
-M&M (all varieties)
-Three Musketeers
-Milky Way
-Milk Chocolate
-100 Grand
Carnation (Nestle)
Hot Cocoa Mixes:
-Rich Chocolate
-Double Chocolate
-Milk Chocolate
-Marshmallow Madness
-Mini Marshmallow
-No Sugar
-Chocolate Syrup
-Special Dark Chocolate Syrup
-Strawberry Syrup
-Strawberry Nesquik
Swiss Miss (ConAgra)
-Chocolate Sensation
-Milk Chocolate
-Marshmallow Lovers
-Marshmallow Lovers Fat Free
-No Sugar Added

Condiments ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Del Monte (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Ketchup (regular & no salt)
-Chili Sauce
-Cocktail Sauce
-Heinz 57 Steak Sauce
Hellman’s (Bestfoods)
-Real Mayonnaise
-Light Mayonnaise
-Low-Fat Mayonnaise
Hunt’s (ConAgra)
-Ketchup (regular & no salt)
-KC Masterpiece
-Original BBQ sauce
-Garlic & Herb Marinade
-Honey Teriyaki Marinade
Kraft (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Miracle Whip (all varieties)
-Kraft Mayonnaise (all)
-Thick & Spicy BBQ sauces (all varieties)
-Char Grill BBQ sauce
-Honey Hickory BBQ sauce
Nabisco (Nabiso/Phillip Morris)
-A-1 Steak Sauce
Open Pit (Vlasic/Campbells)
-BBQ sauces (all)
-Chi-Chi’s (Hormel)
-Fiesta Salsa (all varieties)
-Old El Paso (Pillsbury)
-Thick & Chunky Salsa
-Garden Pepper Salsa
-Taco Sauce
-Picante Sauce
Ortega (Nestle)
-Taco Sauce
-Salsa Prima Homestyle
-Salsa Prima Roasted Garlic
-Salsa Prima 3 Bell Pepper
-Thick & Chunky Salsa
Pace (Campbells)
-Chunky Salsa
-Picante Sauce
Tostitos Salsa (Frito-Lay/Pepsi)
-All Natural
-All Natural Thick & Chunky
-Roasted Garlic
-Restaurant Style

Cookies ~Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Delicious Brands (Parmalat)
-Animal Crackers
-Ginger Snaps
-Fig Bars
-Sugar-Free Duplex
-Honey Grahams
-Cinnamon Grahams
-Fat Free Vanilla Wafers
-English Toffee Heath Cookies
-Butterfinger Cookies
-Skippy Peanut Butter Cookies
Famous Amos (Keebler/Flowers Industries)
-Chocolate Chip
-Oatmeal Raisin
-Chocolate Sandwich
-Peanut Butter Sandwich
-Vanilla Sandwich
-Oatmeal Macaroon Sandwich
Frookies (Delicious Brands/Parmalat)
-Peanut Butter Chunk
-Chocolate Chip
-Double Chocolate
-Frookwich Vanilla
-Frookwich Chocolate
-Frookwich Peanut Butter
-Frookwich Lemon
-Funky Monkeys Chocolate
-Ginger Snaps
-Lemon Wafers
Keebler (Keebler/Flowers Industries)
-Chips Deluxe
-E.L. Fudge
-Soft Batch Chocolate Chip
-Golden Vanilla Wafers
-Vienna Fingers
-Fudge Shoppe Fudge Stripes
-Fudge Shoppe Double Fudge & Caramel
-Fudge Shoppe Fudge Stix
-Fudge Shoppe Peanut Butter Fudge Stix
-Country Style Oatmeal
-Graham Originals
-Graham Cinnamon Crisp
-Graham Chocolate
-Graham Honey Low Fat
-Crème Filled Wafers
-Chocolate Filled Wafers
Nabisco (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Oreo,(all varieties)
-Chips Ahoy!(all varieties)
-Fig Newtons (and all Newtons varities)
-Lorna Doone
-Nutter Butters
-Barnum Animal Crackers
-Nilla Wafers
-Nilla Chocolate Wafers
-Pecanz Shortbread
-Family Favorites Oatmeal
-Famous Wafers
-Fudge Covered Mystic Sticks
-Honey Maid Graham Crackers
-Honey Maid Cinnamon Grahams
-Honey Maid Chocolate Grahams
-Honey Maid Oatmeal Crunch
-Teddy Grahams
-Teddy Grahams Cinnamon
-Teddy Grahams Chocolate
-Teddy Grahams Chocolate Chips
-Café Cremes Vanilla
-Café Crème Cappuccino
Pepperidge Farm (Campbell’s)
-Mint Milano
-Chocolate Chip
-Lemon Nut
-Ginger Men
-Raspberry Chantilly
-Strawberry Verona
-Chocolate Mocha Salzburg
-Chocolate Chunk Chesapeake
-Chocolate Chunk Nantucket
-Chocolate Chunk Sausalito
-Oatmeal Raisin Soft Baked
Sesame Street (Keebler)
-Cookie Monster
-Chocolate Chip
-Chocolate Sandwich
-Vanilla Sandwich
-Cookie Pals
-Honey Grahams
-Cinnamon Grahams
-Frosted Grahams
Snack Wells (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Devil’s Food
-Golden Devil’s Food
-Mint Crème
-Coconut Crème
-Chocolate Sandwich
-Chocolate Chip
-Peanut Butter Chip
-Double Chocolate Chip

Crackers ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Keebler (Keebler/Flowers Industries)
-Town House
-Munch ‘Ems (all varieties)
-Zesta Saltines
-Toasteds (Wheat, Onion, Sesame & Butter Crisps)
-Snax Stix (Wheat, Cheddar & original)
-Harvest Bakery (Multigrain, Butter, Corn Bread)
Nabisco (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Ritz (all varieties)
-Wheat Thins (all)
-Better Cheddars
-Premium Saltines (all)
-Ritz Snack Mix (all)
-Vegetable Flavor Crisps
-Swiss Cheese Flavor Crisps
-Cheese Nips (all)
-Uneeda Biscuits
Pepperidge Farm (Campbell’s)
-Butter Thins
-Hearty Wheat
-Cracker Trio
-Cracker Quartet
-Three Cheese Snack Stix
-Sesame Snack Stix
-Pumpernickel Snack Stix
-Goldfish (original, cheddar, parmesan, pizza, pretzel)
-Goldfish Snack Mix (all)
Red Oval Farms (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Stoned Wheat Thin (all varieties)
-Crisp ‘N Light Sourdough Rye
-Crisp ‘N Light Wheat
Sunshine (Flowers Industries)
-Cheeze-It (original & reduced fat)
-Cheeze-It White Cheddar
-Cheeze-It Party Mix
-Krispy Original Saltines

Frozen Dinners ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Banquet (ConAgra)
-Pot Pies (all varieties)
-Fried Chicken
-Salisbury Steak
-Chicken Nugget Meal
-Pepperoni Pizza Meal
Budget Gourmet (Heinz)
-Roast Beef Supreme
-Beef Stroganoff
-Three Cheese Lasagne
-Chicken Oriental & Vegeatble
-Fettuccini Primavera
Green Giant (Pillsbury)
-Rice Pilaf with Chicken Flavored Sauce
-Rice Medley with Beef Flavored Sauce
-Primavera Pasta
-Pasta Accents Creamy Cheddar
-Create-a-Meals Parmesan Herb Chicken
-Cheesy Pasta and Vegetable
-Beef Noodle
-Sweet & Sour
-Mushroom Wine Chicken
Healthy Choice (ConAgra)
-Stuffed Pasta Shells
-Chicken Parmagiana
-Country Breaded Chicken
-Roast Chicken Breast
-Beef Pot Roast
-Chicken & Corn Bread
-Cheese & Chicken Tortellini
-Lemon Pepper Fish
-Shrimp & Vegetable
-Macaroni & Cheese
Kid Cuisine (ConAgra)
-Chicken Nugget Meal
-Fried Chicken
-Taco Roll Up
-Corn Dog
-Cheese Pizza
-Fish Stix
-Macaroni & Cheese
Lean Cuisine (Stouffer’s/Nestle)
-Skillet Sensations Chicken & Vegetable
-Broccoli & Beef
-Homestyle Beef
-Teriyaki Chicken
-Chicken Alfredo
-Garlic Chicken
-Roast Turkey
-Hearty Portions Chicken Florentine
-Beef Stroganoff
-Cheese & Spinach Manicotti
-Salisbury Steak
-Café Classics Baked Fish
-Baked Chicken
-Chicken a L’Orange
-Chicken Parmesan
-Meatloaf with Whipped Potatoes
-Everyday Favorites Chicken Fettuccini
-Chicken Pie
-Angel Hair Pasta
-Three Bean Chili with Rice
-Macaroni & Cheese
Marie Callenders (ConAgra)
-Chicken Pot Pie
-Lasagna & Meat Sauce
-Turkey & Gravy
-Meat Loaf & Gravy
-Country Fried Chicken & Gravy
-Fettuccini with Broccoli & Cheddar
-Roast Beef with Mashed Potatoes
-Country Fried Pork Chop with Gravy
-Chicken Cordon Bleu
Ore-Ida Frozen Potatoes (Heinz)
-Fast Fries
-Steak fries
-Hash Browns
-Tater Tots
-Potato Wedges
-Crispy Crunchies
Rosetto Frozen Pasta (Heinz)
-Cheese Ravioli
-Beef Ravioli
-Italian Sausage Ravioli
-Eight Cheese Stuffed Shells
-Eight Cheese Broccoli Stuffed Shells
Stouffer’s (Nestle)
-Family Style Favorites Macaroni & Cheese
-Stuffed Peppers
-Broccoli au Gratin
-Meat Loaf in Gravy
-Green Bean & Mushroom Casserole
-Homestyle Meatloaf
-Salisbury Steak
-Chicken Breast in Gravy
-Hearty Portions Salisbury Steak
-Chicken Fettucini
-Meatloaf with Mashed Potatoes
-Chicken Pot Pie
Swanson (Vlasic/Campbells)
-Meat Loaf
-Fish & Chips
-Salisbury Steak
-Chicken Nuggets
-Hungry Man Fried Chicken
-Roast Chicken
-Fisherman’s Platter
-Pork Rib
Voila! (Bird’s Eye/Agri-Link Foods)
-Chicken Voila! Alfredo
-Chicken Voila! Garlic
-Chicken Voila! Pesto
-Chicken Voila! Three Cheese
-Steak Voila! Beef Sirloin
-Shrimp Voila! Garlic
Weight Watchers (Heinz)
-Smart Ones Fiesta Chicken
-Basil Chicken
-Ravioli Florentine
-Fajita Chicken
-Roasted Vegetable Primavera

Energy Bars & Drinks ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Power Bars
Power Bar (Nestle)
-Oatmeal Raisin
-Apple Cinnamon
-Peanut Butter
-Vanilla Crisp
-Chocolate Peanut Butter
-Wild Berry
-Harvest Bars Apple Crisp
-Chocolate Fudge Brownie
-Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip
Drink Mixes
Carnation Instant Breakfast Mix (Nestle)
-Creamy Milk Chocolate
-Classic Chocolate
-French Vanilla
-Café Mocha

Heat & Serve Meals ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Chef Boyardee (ConAgra)
-Macaroni & Cheese
-Mini Ravioli
-ABC’s & 123′s
Dinty Moore (Hormel)
-Beef Stew
-Turkey Stew
-Chicken & Dumplings
-Chili with Beans
-Chili No Beans
-Vegetarian Chili with Beans
Kids’ Kitchen (Hormel)
-Spaghetti Rings with Meatballs
-Macaroni & Cheese
-Pizza Wedges with 3 Cheese
Franco-American (Campbell’s)
-Spaghetti O’s
-Mini Ravioli
-Power Rangers Pasta in Sauce

Meat & Dairy Alternatives ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Loma Linda(Worthington/Kellogg’s*)
-Meatless Chik Nuggest
Morningstar (Worthington/Kellogg’s*)
-Harvest Burger
-Better ‘n Burgers
-Garden Veggie Patties
-Grillers Burgers
-Black Bean Burger
-Chicken Patties
Natural Touch (Worthington/Kellogg’s*)
-Garden Vegetable Pattie
-Black Bean Burger
-Okra Pattie
-Lentil Rice Loaf
-Nine Bean Loaf
Worthington (Worthington/Kellogg’s*)
-Vegetarian Burger
-Savory Slices
Dairy Alternatives
Nutra Blend Soy Beverage(Bestfoods)
*A company letter states that they are in the process of converting to non-genetically modified “proteins” in all products.

Meal Mixes & Sauce Packets ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Betty Crocker (General Mills)
-Garden Vegetable Pilaf
-Creamy Herb Risotto
-Garlic Alfredo Fettuccini
-Bowl Appetit Cheddar Broccoli
-Macaroni & Cheese
-Pasta Alfredo
Knorr (Bestfoods)
-Mushroom Risotto Italian Rice
-Broccoli au Gratin Risotto
-Vegetable Primavera Risotto
-Risotto Milanese
-Original Pilf
-Chicken Pilaf
-Rotini with 4 Cheese
-Bow Tie Pasta with Chicken & Vegetable
-Penne with Sun-Dried Tomato
-Fettuccini with Alfredo
-Classic Sauce Packets Hollandaise
-Lemon Herb
-Mushroom Brown
-Roasted Chicken
-Roasted Pork
-Roasted Turkey
Pasta Sauce Packets Alfredo
-Four Cheese
-Garlic Herb
Lipton (Unilever)
-Rice & Sauce Packets Chicken Broccoli
-Cheddar Broccoli
-Beef Flavor
-Chicken Flavor
-Creamy Chicken
-Sizzle & Stir Skillet Supers Lemon Garlic Chicken & Rice
-Spanish Chicken & Rice
-Herb Chicken & Bowties
-Cheddar Chicken & Shells
Near East (Quaker)
-Spicy Tomato Pasta Mix
-Roasted Garlic & Olive Oil Pasta Mix
-Falafel Mix
-Lentil Pilaf
-Tomato Lentil
-Toasted Pinenut
-Herb Chicken
-Broccoli & Cheese
Pasta Roni (Quaker)
-Fettuccini Alfredo
-Garlic Alfredo
-Angel Hair Pasta with Herbs
-Angel Hair Pasta with Parmesan Cheese
-Angel Hair Pasta with Tomato Parmesan
-Angel Hair Pasta Primavera
-Garlic & Olive Oil with Vermicelli
Rice-a-Roni (Quaker)
-Rice Pilaf
-Fried Rice
-Chicken & Broccoli
-Long Grain & Wild Rice
-Broccoli au Gratin
Uncle Ben’s (Mars)
-Long Grain & Wild Rice (Original & with Garlic)
-Brown & Wild Rice Mushroom
-Country Inn Mexican Fiesta
-Country Inn Oriental Fried Rice
-Country Inn Chicken & Vegetable
-Country Inn Chicken & Broccoli
-Natural Select Chicken & Herb
-Natural Select Tomato & Basil
-Chef’s Recipe Chicken & Vegetable Pilaf
-Chef’s Recipe Beans & Rice
-Chef’s Recipe Broccoli Rice

Frozen Pizza ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Celeste (Aurora Foods)
-Four Cheese
Tombstone (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Sausage & Pepperoni
-Extra Cheese
-Stuffed Crust
-Three Cheese
Totino’s (Pillsbury)
-Crisp Crust

Snack Foods ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Act II Microwave Popcorn (ConAgra)
-Extreme Butter
-Corn on the Cob
Frito-Lay* (PepsiCo)
-Lays Potato Chips (all varieties)
-Ruffles Potato Chips (all)
-Doritos Corn Chips (all)
-Tostitos Corn Chips (all)
-Fritos Corn Chips (all)
-Cheetos (all)
-Rold Gold Pretzels (all)
-Cracker Jack Popcorn
Healthy Choice Microwave Popcorn (ConAgra)
-Organic Corn (soy/canola oils)
Mothers Corn Cakes (Quaker)
-Butter Pop
Orville Redenbacher Microwave Popcorn (ConAgra)
-Smart Pop
-Pour Over
-Orville Redenbacher Popcorn Cakes
-Orville Redenbacher Mini Popcorn Cakes
-Peanut Caramel
-Chocolate Peanut
Pop Secret Microwave Popcorn (Betty Crocker/General Mills)
-Jumbo Pop
-Extra Butter
-94% Fat Free Butter
Pringles (Procter & Gamble)
-Low Fat
-Sour Cream & Onion
-Salt & Vinegar
-Quaker Rice Cakes
-Peanut Butter
-Chocolate Crunch
-Cinnamon Streusel
-Sour Cream & Onion
-Apple Cinnamon
-Caramel Corn
-Quaker Corn Cakes
-White Cheddar
-Caramel Corn
-Strawberry Crunch
-Caramel Chocolate Chip
*Frito has informed its corn and potato suppliers that the company wishes to avoid GE crops, but acknowledges that canola or other oils and ingredients in its products may be from GE sources.

Soda & Juice Drinks ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Coca Cola (Coca Cola)
Cherry Coke
Barq’s Root Beer
Minute Maid Orange
Minute Maid Grape
Wild Cherry Pepsi
Mug Root Beer
Mountain Dew
Dr. Pepper
A & W Root Beer
Sunkist Orange
Schweppes Ginger Ale
Capri Sun juices (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Red Berry
-Surfer Cooler
-Splash Cooler
-Wild Cherry
-Strawberry Kiwi
-Fruit Punch
-Pacific Cooler
Fruitopia (Coca Cola)
-Grape Beyond
-Berry Lemonade
-Fruit Integration
-Kiwiberry Ruckus
-Strawberry Passion
-Tremendously Tangerine
Fruit Works (PepsiCo)
-Strawberry Melon
-Peach Papaya
-Pink Lemonade
-Apple Raspberry
Gatorade (Quaker)
-Lemon Lime
-Fierce Grape
-Frost Riptide Rush
Hawaiian Punch (Procter & Gamble)
-Tropical Fruit
-Grape Geyser
-Fruit Juicy Red
-Strawberry Surfin
Hi-C (Coca Cola)
-Pink Lemonade
-Watermelon Rapids
-Boppin’ Berry
-Tropical Punch
-Smashin’ Wildberry
-Blue Cooler
-Blue Moon Berry
Kool Aid (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Blastin’ Berry Cherry
-Bluemoon Berry
-Kickin’ Kiwi Lime
-Tropical Punch
-Wild Berry Tea
-Ocean Spray
-Cranberry Juice Cocktail
Squeeze It (Betty Crocker/General Mills)
-Rockin’ Red Puncher
-Chucklin’ Cherry
-Mystery 2000
Sunny Delight (Procter & Gamble)
-Sunny Delight Original
-Sunny Delight With Calcium Citrus Punch
-Sunny Delight California Style Citrus Punch
Tang juices (Kraft/Phillip Morris)
-Orange Uproar
-Fruit Frenzy
-Berry Panic
Tropicana Twisters (PepsiCo)
-Grape Berry
-Apple Raspberry Blackberry
-Cherry Berry
-Cranberry Raspberry Strawberry
-Pink Grapefruit
-Tropical Strawberry
-Orange Cranberry
-Orange Strawberry Banana
V-8 (Campbells)
-V8 Tomato Juices (all varieties)
-Strawberry Kiwi
-Strawberry Banana
-Fruit Medley
-Berry Blend
-Citrus Blend
-Apple Medley
-Tropical Blend
-Island Blend

Soup ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

-Chicken Noodle
-Cream of Chicken
-Cream of Mushroom
-Cream of Celery
-Cream of Broccoli
-Cheddar Cheese
-Green Pea
-Healthy Request Chicken Noodle
-Cream of Chicken
-Cream of Mushroom
-Cream of Celery
-Campbell’s Select Roasted Chicken with Rice
-Grilled Chicken with Sundried Tomatoes
-Chicken Rice
-Vegetable Beef
-Chunky Beef with Rice
-Hearty Chicken & Vegetable
-Pepper Steak
-Baked Potato with Steak & Cheese
-New England Clam Chowder
-Soup to Go Chicken Noodle
-Chicken Rice
-Garden Vegetable
-Vegetable Beef & Rice
Simply Home Chicken Noodle
Chicken Rice
Garden Vegetable
Vegetable Beef with Pasta
Healthy Choice (ConAgra)
-Country Vegetable
-Fiesta Chicken
-Bean & Pasta
-Chicken Noodle
-Chicken with Rice
Pepperidge Farms (Campbell’s)
-Corn Chowder
-Lobster Bisque
-Chicken & Wild Rice
-New England Clam Chowder
-Crab Soup
Progresso (Pillsbury)
-Tomato Basil
-Chicken Noodle
-Chicken & Wild Rice
-Chicken Barley
-New England Clam Chowder
-Zesty Herb Tomato
-Roasted Chicken with Rotini
-Fat Free Minestrone
-Fat Free Chicken Noodle
-Fat Free Lentil
-Fat Free Roast Chicken

Tomatoes & Sauces ~ Genetically Engineered Ingredients

Del Monte (Nabisco/Phillip Morris)
-Tomato Sauce
Five Brothers Pasta Sauces (Lipton/Unilever)
-Summer Vegetable
-Five Cheese
-Roasted Garlic & Onion
-Tomato & Basil
Healthy Choice Pasta Sauces (ConAgra)
-Garlic & Herb
-Sun-Dried Tomato & Herb
Hunts (ConAgra)
-Traditional Spaghetti Sauce
-Four Cheese Spaghetti Sauce
-Tomato Sauce
-Tomato Paste
Prego Pasta Sauces (Campbells)
-Tomato, Basil & Garlic
-Fresh Mushroom
-Ricotta Parmesan
-Meat Flavored
-Roasted Garlic & Herb
-Three Cheese
-Chicken with Parmesan
Ragu Sauces (Lipton/Unilever)
-Old World Traditional
-Old World with Meat
-Old World Marinara
-Old World with Mushrooms
-Ragu Robusto Parmesan & Romano
-Ragu Robusto Roasted Garlic
-Ragu Robusto Sweet Italian Sausage
-Ragu Robusto Six Cheese
-Ragu Robusto Tomato, Olive Oil & Garlic
-Ragu Robusto Classic Italian Meat
-Chunky Garden Style Super Garlic
-Chunky Garden Style Garden Combo
-Chunky Garden Style Tomato, Garlic & Onion
-Chunky Garden Style Tomato, Basil & Italian Cheese
-Pizza Quick Traditional